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Archive for March, 2015

Letter from Mom and Dad

My Child,

When I get old, I hope you understand and have patience with me

In case I break the plate or spill a soup on the table because I’m loosing my eyesight, I hope you don’t yell at me

Older people are sensitive..always having selfpity when you yell


When my hearings gets worse and I can’t hear what you’re saying,

I hope you don’t call me “Deaf!”

Please repeat what you said or write it down

I’m sorry my Child…I’m getting older

When my knees get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up

Like how I used to help you while you were little,

Learning how to walk

Please bear with me…

Come to Mama - Awarded for Most Favourite Photo on Mothers Day Photo Competition 2008 held by Rotary Kunthi & The City Government of Semarang

Come to Mama – Awarded for Most Favourite Photo on Mothers Day Photo Competition 2008 held by Rotary Kunthi & The City Government of Semarang

When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,

I hope you just keep listening to me

Please don’t make fun of me, or get sick of listening to me

Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a balloon?

You repeated youself over and over until you got what you wanted…

…Please also pardon my smell,

I smell like an old person

Please don’t force me to shower, my body is weak

Old people get sick easily when they’re cold.

I hope I don’t gross you out

Do you remember when you were little ?

I used to chase you around because you didn’t want to shower


Face Forward – Awarded for 1st Winner on Mothers Day Photo Competition 2008 held by Rotary Kunthi & The City Government of Semarang

I hope you can be patient with me when I’m always cranky

It’s all part of getting old,

You’ll understand when you’re older

And if you have spare time, I hope we can talk

Even for a few minutes

I’m always all by myself all the time, and have no one to talk to

I know you’re busy with work

Even if you’re not interested in my stories,

Please have time for me

Do you remember when you were little ?

I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear


When the time comes and I get ill and bedridden

I hope you have the patience to take care of me

I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess

I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life

I’m not going to last much longer, anyway

When the time of my death comes,

I hope you hold my hand and give me the strength to face death

Love - Selected Photo for Salon Foto Indonesia 2009

Love – Selected Photo for Salon Foto Indonesia 2009

And don’t worry…

When I finally met our Creator…

I will whisper in His ear to BLESS you

Because you loved your Mom and Dad

Thank you so much for your care

We love you.

with much love,

Mom and Dad

(courtesy of YouTube)


Soccer Fever

It takes more than six years for me to start make a writing on this site. It was Stephanus Hannie and Igor Firdauzi that inspired me to begin to write. They were some of my favourite photographers, as well as Henry Cartier Bresson and Steve McCurry. And of course “Mbah” Joko Nuswantoro – my friend and also my mentor in photography (I have to admit it here, eventhough we often criticize each other photographs when we met). This is one of the story of my journey with him. DSC_0590EBWL Once again there were rain that made me stopped my motorcycle aside on the way to Chinatown. It was November 2008, rainy season, no wonder the weather changed so quickly as before it was clear and sunny. I step aside in front of a closed store near MAJT to protect my camera from getting wet of rain.

selected photo for Salon Foto Indonesia 2009 and Garuda International Photo Contest 2009

Slide & Splash – selected photo for Salon Foto Indonesia 2009

Couple hours of waiting the rain are stopping. Only small teardrops left. Above I saw kids are running towards the football field behind the.MAJT. One carrying a football running into that wet and muddy field. DSC_0531EBWL Their going to play football!! It will be a great moment to shoot.. Shouldn’t miss it!! Grab on my camera and change the lens into my 70-300mm sigma. Texted my friend “Mbah” Joko Nuswantoro whose home not far away from here to share this moment. DSC_0533EBWL DSC_0683EBWL DSC_0685EBWL “Come here quick!!” I said,”You would regret if you miss this” “Coming”, he said. I can tell from his voice that he was just waken up from his afternoon nap. I began to take shots without waiting for him to come. DSC_0547EBWL DSC_0680EBWL “This is a rare & precious moment that might be only come once in a lifetime” Many shots have made and the game has just finished as “Mbah Joko” arrived on location. DSC_0672 copy “D**n I’m late!!” he said “You’re missing the best moment bro” DSC_0691EBWL

The Returning


Excited,enthusiast,anxious maybe those words could represent what I felt a night before the day I’m going to grab my camera back on street again after more than three years been kept in my drybox – maybe this also explain what caused my 18-70mm lens got error on it autofocus system.

Those feelings also kept me awake and couldn’t sleep that night until 1.30am..can’t wait to see morning comes. alarm woke me up and I get to rush to prepare everything.

“Ready?” I short messaged Adam my bro who is going to accompany me for this photohunt.

“Teardrops,”he answered shortly, “Maybe we should reschedule,” he said again.

“What??”I got out quick to see what happen…I looked up at the sky and yes teardrops are coming…again dissapointment came in me as the weather not supporting me for this hunting plan…

I still get my car out of garage anyway…I’m not giving up again after couple days ago I have cancelled my plan to go to Merapi for a photoshot there. I ran out my car on the road and get myself back together again after seeing that there are no more rain coming out on the way to the harbour where I’m heading.


I contacted Adam again,”No more rain,”I said

“Yes..But the sky is flat…No good,”he answered

“Let’s just wait another couple hours, or maybe we should change location,” He said again.

I think he understand my anxiety to go hunting after years of “fasting”

“Where?” I asked.

“Pasar Gang Baru?” he answered me with a question

“Mmm..Pasar Gang Baru, my favourite spot..OK, I’ll pick you up now at the meeting point..Let’s just have some breakfast while we wait til the sky’s open” I said quick before he changed his mind again.

I don’t want this hunting time tobe canceled anymore. I’m very thirst for this moment.
It’s about 6.00 am when we met up at meeting point. The sun has come up but above heading to the harbour the sky still seem flat. We decided to keep on to the harbour as we’ve first planned.

Thanks God the weather getting better as we’ve arrived on location.


After having a cup of tea and light up my cigarette we took out our gears from the bags and started to shoot..finally I got back to this moment of excitement after these last three years.